April

Wow, it's been such a long time since I have posted something. Or well it feels that way. I should post more because the only way that I'm going to be able to keep my memories is if I keep them online...clearly. This past Friday I thought was a normal day. I headed over to Kira's around ten in the morning to spend the day with her and Antonia and say goodbye to each of them. I said goodbye to Maja on Wednesday.
So it was going well, and we had lunch and we still had a couple hours left, talking about when I was going to come to Germany. Then I got a call from my mother saying we had been robbed. Now every memory I ever had in photos is gone. They took my laptop, my external hard drive with all my old photos on it, and my camera. They took everything else of my mothers. Jewelry, her knife bag, anything else special. So now we are kind in the process of trying to find a new apartment.
I had to use all my Europe money to buy a new laptop (macbook pro.) So now I can't go to Europe this Summer which is so depressing. I just can't even believe that this happened.  It's the last thing that I ever thought would have happened and now all we can do is put all the things we owned behind on and move on and replace what we can. We think we found a new place to live, the woman called us today actually. So hopefully we get the triplex and then get the hell out of this horrible apartment.
Other than that I have Alex. He told my mother we were dating on Easter which was just so awkward. But not as bad as I thought that it would be. Oh well, I guess that's it.

Hellos are far better than goodbyes

Today was a great day! A day that many of us have been waiting for. I woke up around 10 and then I went to meet Megan, Elise, and Harry. We hung around South Shore for a bit and then Megan went to work and me and Elise just continued hanging out. We didn't do much, but I had to run around and get some things for Kira's arrival. Finally around seven I basically ran to Ivan and Melanie's house and I had the long awaited hugs and screams from Kira and Maja. I have missed them so much. We just sat around the kitchen and hung out. Some other friends came over and we all just sat around and talked and watched Sabine be Sabine. Afterwards we all went to Safeway where Kira and Maja got their heavy whipping cream and fruit...lol and we ran into Alex so I was able to introduce him to Ariel, Kira, Maja, and Alina who had come with us. It was just nice to spend time with them and be able to be in there presence again. It was almost like the distance hadn't even happened. It felt like everything went back to normal and nothing really changed.

Los Angeles

So this past weekend me, Elise, and Megan flew down to L.A to have a little mini vacation. The first day we just spent hanging around Huntington Beach and then we went home and watched movies. We tried to go play laser tag but it ended up being different than what they said on the phone. And then me and Megan had to sprint down the block after Megan's dad before we got lost in Torrance. When we got home we played wiifit where I hurt my sides hella bad. They hurt for days after that. But it was still okay. The night ended with me being delusional and weird.
The nexy day in L.A it was pouring rain, so we ended up just going to see the Hunger Games. I didn't think I would like it as much as I did, but I thought it was really good. It inspired me to really want to read the books. Especially since there's so much more that could have been explained in the movie that is explained in the books. After that we drove over to Newport Beach and went to fashion island. We spent the entire time in forever 21, and then the mall closed early. I guess it was because it was a Sunday, but it was still a little weird. Then we just watched the Kardashians and Megan passed out like usual. We kinda had to go to bed early anyway since we were going to be spending the whole next day in Disneyland.
 On Monday we woke up around eight something and then we all got ready and headed over to Anaheim around nine in the morning. We spent the whole freaking day at Disneyland. Seriously like fifteen hours. It was painful. Lol, I think we were all pretty tired of it around like five pm, but we stayed strong and stayed until midnight. We went on Big Thunder Mountain FIVE times and splash mountain three...I never thought that they would be able to even get me to go on that one. Since we went on at night there wasn't really a line and then I was the one that got completely soaked. My cardgian was so wet that I had to take it off and only wear one jacket dispite the freezing cold. The whole day Elisse had been talking about this damn tiki room and she finally got us to go on it, or well sit in it at the end of the day. The whole day kind of made me realize that there really is such a thing as too much Disneyland. But anyway, that is pretty much the whole trip.

Something new

Wow, I haven't posted in so long when so much has happened.
I am now officially in a relationship with Alex. I mean we have been anyway, but we decided to make it like boyfriend/girlfriend official. Things have been going really well, and I am happy that we have finally made it to this point after the year of maybe, maybe not. Honestly, I think I was stupid to wait this long because we get along so well with each other and I think we are pretty compatible.
We've been hanging out with Megan and Derick and it's been good times.
There's been many funny moments as well, I need to start blogging more so that I can remember them. I really don't want to forget a moment. Although every time I think of my creepy hair thing I can't stop laughing. I'm leaving for L.A tomorrow for three days and that seems like such a long time to be apart. That sounds ridiculous to anyone else, but after seeing someone every single day, whether it's being at work or hanging out, it's just a long time.
I'm happy that I have someone who actually cares about me, and accepts me for everything that I am. It's really nice to have someone that I can be completely myself around. But anyway, I'm going to stop ranting about my relationship and end this post. I need to pack since I have to leave for my flight around 9:30. Yay for getting away.

Oh, Summertime

Lately things have been so incredibly stressful. I had to basically pay half the rent the other day and blow my savings. It was depressing because now I can't go to Germany in the Summer. Im going to talk to my friends though and see if i'm going to see if I can come during the winter  break and see them then. Plus Germany would be really beautiful in the Winter.
Anyway, today was a really nice day. It felt like Summer. Me Derick and Megan all went to the Harbor Bay Club and we went swimming all day and went in the hot tub. Then we went to Edison school and sat on the swings and just talked about things. After we said hit to Sam and Jessica and dropped Megan off with them me and Derick went to this mexican restaurant on the west end and had dinner. Let's just say it's no La P... But other than that it was really just a nice summery day.
But yeah, I'm hoping that things start looking up and stop being so stressful. Another thing I kinda want to get out of my system is that i'm thinking about moving out. I know it would be a tough decision and it would be hard at times but I think that it might be right for me to get out of the house and learn to be my own person and continue supporting myself in another way. I talked with Derick about it who is also looking to move out and he said he wouldn't mind living with me and his cousin Sam was also looking to do the same thing. It's good because they both would be able to support themselves and would never be late on rent or anything like that so it kinda puts a good option for me. Megan is looking into staying here in Alameda for the next year and that would be pretty cool if she did that too because then maybe I would be more ready to go to L.A with her after a year. I don't know, it's not set in stone or anything but moving out is kind of a nice idea.

Here are some pictures from the HBC.

Wanderlust

Yesterday I hung out with Megan for a bit and then hung out with Dj, Jenay, and their friend Sebastian and all we did was play each other in draw something. Lol that game is so weirdly addicting.
After that Jazmine picked me up and we went to the Shattuck cinema in Berkeley. It was so cute. You walk in and the screen was covered by a red curtain and they were huge chairs. What made it better was that since the isles had slightly bigger gaps than most movie theaters everyone sounded so much farther away. So when people laughed it almost sounded like we had our own personal laugh track. But honestly, that was the funniest movie I have ever seen. It was so fucking funny. It was more original than most comedies.
I would actually go and see that movie again. You know the film was good when every leaves the cinema still laughing. Anyway, after that I got home and skyped Alex like usual and then eventually I kinda fell asleep. Apparently he broke one of his dishes trying to make loud sounds to wake me up. haha
But anyway, I guess that was my day.

First kisses

Yesterday was another work day, I started off early at eleven. Then he walked me home and kissed me goodbye on the forehead. The night before he had kissed me for the first time. I should have known it would come soon, but it's been such a long time. Even as awkward as the kiss was, it was okay because I've become so comfortable around him. In a way, he's the best friend I've ever had. He's accepted me for every part of me and that's what makes it special. Anyway, after work yesterday he came over and we watched One Tree Hill and just sat around on my couch. Eventually we both kind of dozed off, I was more half asleep. Then we eventually said our goodbyes. He asked if he could kiss me, and of course I did. This one was more normal, and more natural. Even though it's such a small gesture it's more of a deal to me. Just because this is the first person I have kissed that I actually have feelings for and it's a nice feeling. So here's to more kisses that actually mean something.

When you're going to San Francisco...

Lately I haven't been posting all that much, but i've been so busy with work. Yesterday me, Megan, Sam, Jessica, and Derick all went to San Francisco. It started out with Lefty's, just about the best sandwich place ever, and then we took a longggg journey to the Golden Gate.
First we couldn't find the damn buses, and then they got moved. So we wandered around looking for fifth street, and our phones kept giving us the wrong directions. We saw wookies, and took pictures with the hearts, and many detours until finally someone asked where we wanted to go and told us where the bus stop was. Then the bus driver helped us a ton and it took three buses but we eventually got to the Golden Gate! After we got there we took a whole bunch of pictures, of course, and then we walked about half way accross the bridge until they told us it was shut down. But we wouldn't have walked the entire thing anyway. After that we took about a 45 minute bus ride to Daly City and then got on the bart there which was another 30 or 40 minutes. But we made sure we stayed amused by ourselves. When we got to Alameda we all went to La Pin, which seems like our typical place to go and we just ate and laughed took pictures...posted some check ins....hahaha and then we parted ways and Derick, Elise who had joined us for dinner, and Megan all went back to Megan's grandmas and we just had a whole bunch of long late night talks which was nice. Overall it was a really good day and I can't wait  until we have even more San Francisco adventures.

A morbid week

These past few days have been insane.
My mom fell the other morning because she woke up dizzy and ended up breaking one of her ribs. Me and Alex took her to the hospital this morning and we waited in the ER for 4 hours while she was getting ex-rayed and such. I'm really glad he was there though  because then I had someone to wait with me and keep me from stressing out. We ended up just sitting there watching the horrible t.v shows they put on and laughing...and starving ourselves. I basically fell asleep when I got home, but then me and Megan ended up going out and getting my mom things she needed and then just watching One Tree Hill. Thank god for Netflix.
Everyone seems to be having family health issues. My friends grandmother passed today, my mom's accident, another friends grandfather and father had medical issues, and someone I know just flew out of town to go see their grandmother who is not doing well. I don't know what's going on this week, but it's been a downer.
On an upside Derick finally booked his tickets for L.A so it's official that we are all going! I can't wait to have that little weekend get away. Especially Disneyland. Nothing like bringing up the mood like the happiest place on earth.

Just another Saturday

Today I had my usual 4-12 shift at Trader Joes.
Alex and I walked to work and then I endured my two hours of register. Everything was pretty good, up until an incident at work where someone took their anger that lasted through out the day on me and complained for some bullshit reason. I was so angry, i've probably never been that angry at work as I was then. But like always all the laughs and ridiculous-ness made the anger fade away and the night turned back to normal. Afterwards Alex and I walked home and now here I am blogging. Nothing to eventful I suppose. Tomorrow will probably be the same. Until then I am either going to fall asleep, (Which is probably not likely) or i'm going to watch How I Met Your Mother... my worst guilty pleasure... hahah

Sippin on pimp juice

I never get to make my posts before midnight so the dates are always a day off, which bothers me. Oh well.
Today I got a haircut. Shorter than I have in a while, I think my bangs are a little too short, but they will grow out in a week. Other than that, I like the change.
After that I met Anna and we did the usual, and then went to In N Out. Omg we had the funniest day.
Sippin on pimp juice. "Riding in cars with Anna! Looking like Ex-Boyfriends with Anna!" "Sippin on the pimp juice aka samoas. And lime aid."
We just thought we were hilarious.
After that I went home and half slept, and half watched more One Tree Hill and then I went to work and it was another normal day at work. I wasn't feeling well at first so I was getting kind of irritated. But then after I calmed down a bit it got better and I was fine.
And now it's just another night ending with a skype call. :)

New Hair

Getting Lost

Today started off with me waking up a little late and then going and meeting Megan at Starbucks. Nothing out of the ordinary.
We went and got food like usual and then we went to my house and booked our plane tickets for our trip to L.A at the end of March. We also convince Derick that he should come with us which should be fun!
Elise booked hers as well, so luckily we are all on the same l fight which is something that I worried about haha just because knowing us we would do something like that.
We also decided that we are going to go to Disneyland. It's going to be so fun to go with friends.
After that I just went to work and had an average day. I almost got a violation though because instead of giving me a lunch they put me on register during a six and half hour shift, and you have to clock out at six hours. But hey, I just got off work a little bit earlier than I expected and then I met Alex and we drove around Bayfarm and got kinda lost and then we went to my old house and off to the Dinos. It was kinda fun just driving around being weird for an hour or so.
Overall I think it was just a simple and enjoyable day.

A change of heart,

And my that I mean, being productive for once.
Today I woke up and saw my mom left three roses in a metal vase next to my bed. And even though it was a small change that most people wouldn't notice, I thought it made my room so different. Almost like it gave it a different feel.
Megan met me at my house and we went to Southshore and just got lunch before she had to go to work and then I went home for the day. I brought my mom won ton soup since I got her sick and a St. Patricks Day shirt just because I knew she liked stuff like that, and I never really do things like that.
Then I went to my room and I saw the roses and started to clean up my room, I did all my laundry and then just ended up relaxing. The day went by so fast that I hardly remember what I did. All I know is now I'm just sitting in bed watching the first season of One Tree Hill and snacking on things.
Early this morning (Like starting at midnight to three in the morning early) I finally told someone what was on my mind that needed to be said, and I think the awkward tension that has been going on is finally being relieved. Saying that I think he wanted more from me then there is what was what I really wanted to get out in the open and now I think we have come to a better understanding to each other than we had before, but none the less I am glad.
I just want everything to go back to normal, and me to feel the same things that I felt before I went to Germany. For a three week trip it really changed my perspective on things. It changed it for the better and also what I am now realizing, some what for the worst.

Valentines Day.

Today was Valentines Day. I woke up and met my best friend/Valentine Megan. We went and saw The Vow....I should honestly just make a whole post about that movie haha.

It started off really well, it showed their love, and how it started and grew. It showed the uniqueness of their relationship and I loved their wedding. Then the accident happened which was a lot more traumatizing than I thought it would be. It was also a little sadder. Paige makes a comment saying how she heard that you're more likely to get pregnant in a car, basically telling him that she is ready to have a baby. And then she takes off her seatbelt and they kiss and that's when the semi truck hits them, and he has that dramatic line "Moments, they impact us." And Paige goes slow motion, head first through the windshield. After she looses her memory she's just such a complete bitch to Leo, and so is her family which I thought was super annoying. So there's about an hour of the movie where you just hate her character, and her family. And he's trying so hard to help her, and help her remember and she's just a dumb bitch. So you spend this time thinking oh the end is going to get better because eventually she will remember and everything will be good, and they give you little things making you think that everything will end up good, but this bitch never gets her memory back and the last five seconds of the movie is when they get back together! Ugh it was just annoying. It was based on a real couple, and the woman never did get her memory back. I think the saddest part of this experience was the fact that their was this little old man watching it alone on Valentines day. :( I don't know, I guess it wasn't too bad, but it was kind of disappointing.

Anyway, after the movie we went our separate ways and went to work. Work was alright, but the store has a weird vibe and not that many people were there. We got to take roses home though which was nice, so I brought my mom some yellow roses because I know that they are her favorite.
And now I am here, chatting one of my favorite people and just having a simple night.

These are the roses I got my mom:

Sick days.

Today I woke up from a call from Megan just to realize I had kind of overslept. But since I was still sick I wasn't in the mood to walk far in the rain anyway. Eventually I got up and some what got ready, but I looked sickly and gross. Then I went to Megan's grandmas house where we were supposed to have a One Tree Hill marathon, but instead we just kind of sat around being lazy and listening to music.
Time went by pretty fast doing nothing and then I just went home and waited for Derick. We went to La Pinata and he got mistaken by a waiter as we sat and talked about Germany and Spring Awakening.
I can't believe I might audition for a musical, I always have the irrational fear of even doing so after all the horrible audition experiences that I have had. But whateva, I don't care. Maybe it will be a good thing.
Anyway, now I'm home and sitting and watching Gossip Girl, still sick. I have work tomorrow, so I hope that i'm starting to feel better by then, since I have never closed being sick and I feel like I might be irritable.
Oh yeah, a somewhat amusing thing happened to be earlier. I was walking through the Trader Joe's parking lot, and I saw someone in their car with a full time shirt, so I was about to go up to the window and be weird and surprise whoever it was. And right when I got up to the window, I saw it was our new manager who just started today and whom I haven't met yet. I started laughing, and luckily he didn't see me because that would have been embarrassing. But it was kinda funny in the moment.
I'm really liking having a blog all to myself here, where I can vent out all my thoughts without the fear of someone I know reading something I don't want them to see.
That was the only problem with my tumblr, so many people I know follow it, so I felt like I always had to censor the feelings I was writing down. But I guess that's all I really have to say right now.

Dolce Far Niente

"The sweetness of doing nothing."
That is English translation of dolce far niente from Italian according to Eat, Pray, Love. I was watching that  movie today since I am home sick. It actually really inspires me to continue traveling. I remember being so afraid when I was leaving and wanting to back out, which thinking back now was ridiculous. It's not like I was completely by myself.
Anyway, "dolce far niente"suits my lifestyle today very much. In the movie they say Americans just get lazy, get a six pack, and sit at home in front of the t.v. I find that to be sadly true.
Here I am, with a pizza sitting here watching movies, although I guess it's not completely lazy since I am sick rather than at work. I'm kinda glad I am getting to just chill today, work has been so stressful lately.
Besides that, the weather has been really nice in Alameda lately. Well everyday except for yesterday where it finally started getting chilly, I guess we are just getting another late winter!

Our beautiful weather from just a few days ago:

And this is what it has turned into...

And with that I will end this post with my cat, Moose! ♥